About my sister.

My heart is hurting a little bit.  Not the way Margie's heart is hurting but mine is hurting for her.  I know this surgery is necessary, I want her to have it so that she can be better. She wants to have it so she can be better.

We have been reaching out to each other more than ever lately.  The emails, texts and phone calls are flying back and forth.  That's why I got in the car and went to see her.  There was a need for distraction and connection.  We needed to be in the same room, even just for twenty-four hours.  We kept it light, we know the seriousness of this but there is no point in dwelling and speculating.  She would send me emails from her doctor's office, they want her to give herself a needle.  I spit coffee on my keyboard.  Right, I laughed, that is never going to happen.  Ever.   But she did it.  I watched her.

I was offering her advice a week or so ago and told her that her job right now, her priority, her only thing was to prepare herself, mind, body and spirit for what she faces.  My advice?  I told her to do all the right things, meditate, exercise, eat well, be calm, treat herself to books and magazines, and to look vague.  I'm not sure what that means now that I'm relating this story.  But I think I meant that she should tune out from some of the demands day to day life puts on us all. 

As you can see from her previous post.  That's not Margie's way.  She will take care of the others so that she knows they have what they need while she's recuperating.  She gave herself the needle, she dragged laundry 300 miles, got it done and likely put it away.  And they aren't going to starve, when she makes a grocery order in preparation for something, nothing gets missed.

Tomorrow is her surgery.   She is showing incredible courage.  She has never once said that she's scared or that she can't do it.    It's hard to face something like this, the fear factor is huge.  We all cope in different ways, some of us don't cope, we curl into little balls and wait impatiently for it all to be over.  Not Marg.

My sister, she's a coper.  I don't know if that is a word but it describes that part of her where she goes to find strength.  She finds her strength in doing.  That's how she deals with the fear factor.

Tomorrow I'm going to post something she has already prepared.  She took care of that too.  It's guaranteed to choke you up.

It's about this wonderful being who is forever watching.

Don't be afraid.  You will be fine.  You're strong.

I love you.

Kath

Comments

[Leanne]

Hugs. Nothing more right now, just hugs because everything will be fine.

I'll be back. :)

[kristin]

wow love to you and your sister! health and strength. thanks you for your words today at shutter sisters. hugs, kristin

[Kath]

Leanne and Kristin ... Thank you, we both appreciate your good wishes.
Kath

[robin bird]

i didn't realize your recent visit had this as it's backdrop. i know you had a good time and that spending the time together is strengthening to you both. how could it not be? you two are like twins in your love-to-be-together-can't-do-anything-wrong attachment to one another. i hope you are both feeling better today.